CREATIVE WRITING

Here are some creative writing samples of mine....

Mixed Signals

I thought I had accepted it,
​I have but you make it so hard to let go,
You make me so irrational,
Going over those two seconds I thought you were flirting with me,
Ignoring the two hundred hours that you weren’t!
Trying to be as tentative to everyone else as I am to you to avoid suspicion,
But I flinch every time you want to talk to me,
Thinking I’ve been caught!
I want you to know,
I do,
But not yet,
What a thing to say,
How many times do you think someone’s said that?
Missing out on true love or just a moment,
But I am a coward!
The Problem with Love

Now that we are apart I can rationalise my feelings for you,
​But how am I meant to move on when I still see your face in my mind,
I thought I could pretend you didn’t exist,
But I’m still blinded by my fantasy,
I thought that our connection would be stronger without the world watching,
But it isn’t,
Those long nights convincing myself that you felt the same,
Gone,
But I know if you give me a glimmer of hope,
I would lose my mind over you again.
I give you everything,
Whilst you just get on with your life,
But now not only do I wait eagerly for tomorrow,
I watch my phone for hours,
Waiting for you to reply,
Feeling like a 14 year old reading seventeen magazine
„Don’t text back right away“,
“Make them feel jealous”,
But to be jealous you would have to care!
Torture

I think I have idealised you into something you’re not,
​maybe It is your looks after all,
Every time you walk away I analyse everything you did,
And then laugh at myself for even believing in a romance.
I have to ask,
How long will you drive me insane,
I try not to think about you... us,
But this seems to prolong the experience,
I now know what Duffy meant,
Falling in love is glamorous hell.
Soon there will be distance between us,
Maybe for the best.
Loving and losing it doesn’t mean you have lost,
It means strength and power.
Infatuation

​Everyday leaving you behind is the hardest thing to do,
Looking back for a last glance at your stance, that hair and those eyes,
In case this is the last time.
 
As the day draws to a close,
I relive all are words and glances across an unsuspecting room,
bet myself up about the things I could have said,
words in the hands of an admirer are beautiful weapons,
but our love cannot be expressed through words,
 they are collected in a tiny jar,
 tightly shut from prying eyes.
Unrequited Love Story
​
It was like waking up,
You were there just as yourself,
I had seen you everyday but something had changed,
Was it self-acceptance or just you?
 
What ever it was there you were and I stood in the distance,
Silent,
Killing me with every heartbreak you felt,
Wishing I could  say something,
Anything that would make you smile,
That smile,
Subtly beautiful,
With a hint of self doubt.
 
I have to ask why,
There is so much in this world for you,
For us maybe,
But you can’t know that now,
Maybe in two weeks,
Maybe two years,
Two years,
Can I wait that long?
Probably,
But what does that say about me,
Am I a hopeless romantic or just fearful,
Fearful of rejection,
Fearful of admitting my true feelings.
 
Your heavenly,
It’s not your looks,
Although you are beautiful,
But no,
Above all else it’s the potential you have for love,
Something that you do not see yet,
How you only open yourself up to certain people,
How lucky am I that the person you chose is me.
Acceptance
​
I think I have idealized you into something you’re not,
Maybe it is your looks after all,
Every time you walk away I analyse everything you did,
The answers you gave,
What you did with your hair,
Like that would change the facts,
And then I laugh at myself for even believing in a romance.
 
I have to ask,
How long will you drive me insane,
I try not to think about you… us,
But as the Buddha says “what we resist, persists”,
But this seems to prolong the experience,
I now know what Duffy meant,
Falling in Love is glamorous hell.
 
Soon there will be distance between us,
Maybe for the best.
 
Loving and losing doesn’t mean you have lost,
It means strength and power.